I’m not sure why today is an emotional hardship. But I’m being honest and saying it is. Perhaps it’s because of a friend-of-a-friend’s loss of a child yesterday (I don’t even want to label NICU baby or Preemie–it seems to not do the precious LIFE justice). Perhaps it’s because Struthers isn’t having a great day, and he slid backwards over the last 24-hours, taking only one feeding orally and seemingly in pain all day long. Perhaps it’s because I’m facing a hysterectomy in the coming weeks, with a date to be determined but imminently hanging over my head. Perhaps it’s because I know we will surpass 100 days in the NICU, a mark I once thought was unbelievable, and I pitied the NICU family we met who had been there that long.
I realized also that while I sometimes share my emotions here, I rarely share the images that capture the ‘rough days’. And just as it is difficult to describe the emotions, it’s difficult to tell you what’s “wrong” on these bad days. But a picture is worth a thousand words. Thanks for the continued prayers!